How can something that is supposed to be part of you be so against you? How can the brain in your head create all these different thoughts that aren't even true? Why do I sit here thinking of different scenarios in my head...
what if this....
what if that...
How can something that is supposed to work for you....getting you through life make you feel so miserable? It's like constantly being bullied but by your own brain... Constantly living in a state of uncertainty. Why can't my brain be working for me? My brain has bullied me for so long that I cannot find a way to stop it. Even things that should help me be able to think better and clearer are destroyed by my brain.
Where do thoughts come from? How come we can see pictures in our heads.....pictures we know we don't want to see but see anyway. Why can't my brain show me a field of daisies instead of just random awful thoughts?
My brain fights against itself a lot now. Since I have been trying to rid my head of stupid useless thoughts, there is a battle waging against my old ways of thinking and my new ways of thinking. My brain also likes to think fast......constantly spitting images at me...thoughts just racing....like watching car racing. All you see when you watch are these images going by fast ....they aren't quite clear and defined but you know what they are. Like the car racing by....the thought is moving fast and then out of view but it's still there about to make another round.
Are our brains taught to think and learn this way as we are conceived and then grow? Has my childhood shaped my brain to be the way it is.....for as long as I can remember...this is how I have always thought.
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