So its been ages since I posted. I always start something and never finish. *sigh* I really meant for this to be something I did on a daily basis....something that I WOULD finish!
Problem is that I have thoughts.....oh so many thoughts.....that they get all jumbled up and then I feel like no one wants to hear them....sometimes not even myself! I never think what I say or do is good enough....I'm always striving for perfection yet never think I get there. Maybe I need to stop setting such high standards for myself and just sit here and let it all come out. Whether good or bad just let it out.
Who cares if it is read or liked......at least its out of my head.
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Anyhoo.....yesterday I went to visit my 3 year old neice. Such a funny lil tike. She kept calling me Aunt Mary. My uncle said....she isn't Aunt Mary....its Keysha. She says, "Yes it is...she has red hair."
I said, "Nope I am Keysha."
She replies, "Well FINE...if you want to be Keysha, then just BE Keysha!"
lol I thought....Kid that is who I have been trying to be for so long...... "JUST BEING KEYSHA"
I am who I am......like me or not.....I am just being Keysha!
And on a side note: You may or may not have noticed that the Title of my Blogs are Lyrics or names of a Song. Today's lyrics are brought to you by Janis Joplin....Work Me, Lord.
Friday, August 20, 2010
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Make Yourself..............
You don't have to like the band Incubus.....though I highly recommend it....BUT if you read the lyrics to any of their songs....they are moving, inspiring, and for me life changing.
In my early 20s I was having a REALLY hard time...between taking care of a baby, getting rid of an abusive boyfriend, dealing with a VERY dysfunctional family, overcoming depression, and trying to make it through college....but with the will to succeed and determination I did. I look back on those days and I am like WOWSERS....how the hell did you get through all this! I lost myself in all this craziness, lost that drive to be inspired....somedays even the will to live. It was like I had fallen down this huge black abyss.....even with people around..I felt ALONE!
I had always had a love for music since I can remember. Inspired by my grandmother listening to the oldies, my uncle listening to what is now "Classic Rock", to the cheesy yet awesome songs of the 80s. In highschool, music was my life....from the camping out for 16th row seats to see Depeche Mode, to admiring The Cure and the Jesus and Mary Chain, to the Nirvana concert I will never forget!
But during this...as I like to call them Dark Ages.....I had lost my passion for much of anything.....it was there deep within me...just hidden away. I had let someone else take over my life....to this day I can only speculate why and I try not to think about it too much as its not healthy for my soul anymore.
At the ripe age of 23.....I remember the age cuz in one of Incubus' songs....it says
A decade ago,
I never thought I would be,
at twenty-three, on the verge of
spontaneous combustion. -Woe-is-me.-
I discovered this song....and I was like "Holy Shit Batman".....someone gets it....someone else understands.....I am not the only one having a crisis. So I get the CD....and to my delightful surprise....there were more songs with lyrics that spoke to me. It was like this band channeled into my head and could hear everything I was thinking.
I was always about being your own individual....I can remember good ol' Captain Chesapeake (only people from Baltimore can remember him)....saying " Be somebody IMPORTANT...Be YOURSELF!!" In highschool, I became known as a "FREAK" for expressing my own individuality.....but that is for a whole other blog session!
So back to the subject at hand....a song on this Incubus album...Make Yourself.....this song spoke volumes to me that day I played it. I played it over and over taking in every last word. It was like Brandon Boyd was in my room with me that day......talking to just me. Telling me to be myself....not to let anyone else make who I am cuz if you do, they are gonna make you into something you are not, something weak and fragile and before you know it....the individual that you are.... will be gone.
I will leave you now with the lyrics to the song. It's better to listen to the song....but just read these lyrics and understand....we all have the power to choose our own path and don't let anyone else drive you in the wrong direction. If you really want to "LIVE"....be who you want to be and don't let anyone else make you feel wrong about it. At the end of the day.....it is you who has to spend the rest of your life with yourself!
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If I hadn't made me, I would've been made somehow..
If I hadn't assembled myself, Id've fallen apart by now.
If I hadn't made me, I'd be more inclined to bow.
Powers that be, Would have swallowed me up
But that's more than I can allow.
But...
If you let them make you, they'll make you Paper-Mache
At a distance you're strong, until the wind comes
Then you'll crumble and blow away.
If you let him fuck you there will be no foreplay.
Rest assured, They'll screw you complete, Until your ass is blue and grey!
You should make amends with you,
If only for better health.
But if you really want to live,
Why not try, and Make yourself?
Make yourself (Make yourself)
If I hadn't made me, I'd have fallen apart by now.
I won't let them make me..It's more than I can allow.
So when I make me, I won't be paper-Mache..
And if I fuck me...I'll fuck me in my own way.
Fuck me in my own way
Fuck me in my own way
Fuck me in my own way
Fuck me in my own way...
You should make amends with you,
If only for better health (Better health)
But if you really want to live,
Why not try, and Make yourself?
Make yourself
Make yourself
Make yourself
Make yourself!
In my early 20s I was having a REALLY hard time...between taking care of a baby, getting rid of an abusive boyfriend, dealing with a VERY dysfunctional family, overcoming depression, and trying to make it through college....but with the will to succeed and determination I did. I look back on those days and I am like WOWSERS....how the hell did you get through all this! I lost myself in all this craziness, lost that drive to be inspired....somedays even the will to live. It was like I had fallen down this huge black abyss.....even with people around..I felt ALONE!
I had always had a love for music since I can remember. Inspired by my grandmother listening to the oldies, my uncle listening to what is now "Classic Rock", to the cheesy yet awesome songs of the 80s. In highschool, music was my life....from the camping out for 16th row seats to see Depeche Mode, to admiring The Cure and the Jesus and Mary Chain, to the Nirvana concert I will never forget!
But during this...as I like to call them Dark Ages.....I had lost my passion for much of anything.....it was there deep within me...just hidden away. I had let someone else take over my life....to this day I can only speculate why and I try not to think about it too much as its not healthy for my soul anymore.
At the ripe age of 23.....I remember the age cuz in one of Incubus' songs....it says
A decade ago,
I never thought I would be,
at twenty-three, on the verge of
spontaneous combustion. -Woe-is-me.-
I discovered this song....and I was like "Holy Shit Batman".....someone gets it....someone else understands.....I am not the only one having a crisis. So I get the CD....and to my delightful surprise....there were more songs with lyrics that spoke to me. It was like this band channeled into my head and could hear everything I was thinking.
I was always about being your own individual....I can remember good ol' Captain Chesapeake (only people from Baltimore can remember him)....saying " Be somebody IMPORTANT...Be YOURSELF!!" In highschool, I became known as a "FREAK" for expressing my own individuality.....but that is for a whole other blog session!
So back to the subject at hand....a song on this Incubus album...Make Yourself.....this song spoke volumes to me that day I played it. I played it over and over taking in every last word. It was like Brandon Boyd was in my room with me that day......talking to just me. Telling me to be myself....not to let anyone else make who I am cuz if you do, they are gonna make you into something you are not, something weak and fragile and before you know it....the individual that you are.... will be gone.
I will leave you now with the lyrics to the song. It's better to listen to the song....but just read these lyrics and understand....we all have the power to choose our own path and don't let anyone else drive you in the wrong direction. If you really want to "LIVE"....be who you want to be and don't let anyone else make you feel wrong about it. At the end of the day.....it is you who has to spend the rest of your life with yourself!
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If I hadn't made me, I would've been made somehow..
If I hadn't assembled myself, Id've fallen apart by now.
If I hadn't made me, I'd be more inclined to bow.
Powers that be, Would have swallowed me up
But that's more than I can allow.
But...
If you let them make you, they'll make you Paper-Mache
At a distance you're strong, until the wind comes
Then you'll crumble and blow away.
If you let him fuck you there will be no foreplay.
Rest assured, They'll screw you complete, Until your ass is blue and grey!
You should make amends with you,
If only for better health.
But if you really want to live,
Why not try, and Make yourself?
Make yourself (Make yourself)
If I hadn't made me, I'd have fallen apart by now.
I won't let them make me..It's more than I can allow.
So when I make me, I won't be paper-Mache..
And if I fuck me...I'll fuck me in my own way.
Fuck me in my own way
Fuck me in my own way
Fuck me in my own way
Fuck me in my own way...
You should make amends with you,
If only for better health (Better health)
But if you really want to live,
Why not try, and Make yourself?
Make yourself
Make yourself
Make yourself
Make yourself!
Friday, July 30, 2010
Run...........
Every had a song that you could play over and over and never tire of? It reaches the deepest part of your soul and creates goosebumps all over your body. The combination of the music and lyrics just generates something in you that you can't explain. Which in my opinion....if something is so great that you can't explain it...that in itself should just explain it.
I have lots of songs that just "do something" to me.. something I can't explain...something that just gets to me. It's like my long lost soulmate....it just gets me, takes over, knows what I am feeling..thinking...yearning for.
Run by Snow Patrol is that song I will share now. I have more that I shall share at another time. You may have heard this....might not like it....hopefully you do :)
Money can't buy me love........
Oh Money, money...money..........We have such a love hate relationship. You dangle your wicked self in front of my face, and I crave to feel you in my hands. You buy me lots of nice things like a car, house, clothes, food, etc....but then you leave me wanting more and more. You are such a tease. You make me work for you, make me stress over you, make me love you, make me think of doing evil things just to have you slip into my pocket. You motivate me to get up in the morning, only to have me slave at a desk for most of the day and most of the week. You have imprisoned my soul. I am jealous of those who have more of you then they really need and yet jealous of those who can live life simply and not be bound to your seductive wicked ways.
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Let's face it....we all need money....hmm or do we? Well we need clothes (money) to leave the house. We need food (money) to have energy and strength to get by. We like to travel (money) and have a little excitement in our lives. We need shelter (money) to protect us from the elements, keep us safe, etc.
A piece of paper in many different colors, with many pictures and symbols is what gets us all these things that we want and need.
Wars have been fought over it, songs have been written about it, people rob, kill, steal for it. It saves lives, destroys lives.....its evil yet angelic.
As I will in many posts to come....leave you with songs related to this topic. Music is my life and gets me by....you will grow to know that if you don't already.
1. Money for Nothing - Dire StraitsNow look at them yo-yos thats the way you do it
You play the guitar on the mtv
That aint workin thats the way you do it
Money for nothin and chicks for free
2. Can't Buy me Love- The BealtesI’ll give you all I got to give if you say you love me too
I may not have a lot to give but what I got I’ll give to you
I don’t care too much for money, money can’t buy me love
3. Taxman - The Beatles(if you drive a car, car;) – I’ll tax the street;
(if you try to sit, sit;) – I’ll tax your seat;
(if you get too cold, cold;) – I’ll tax the heat;
(if you take a walk, walk;) – I’ll tax your feet.
4. 9 to 5 - Dolly PartonTumble out of bed and stumble to the kitchen;
pour myself a cup of ambition,
and yawn, and stretch, and try to come to life.
Jump in the shower, and the blood starts pumping;
out on the street, the traffic starts jumping,
with folks like me on the job from nine to five.
5. Money changes everything - Cyndi LauperShe said I’m sorry baby I’m leaving you tonight
I found someone new he’s waitin’ in the car outside
Ah honey how could you do it
We swore each other everlasting love
She said well yeah I know but when
We did–there was one thing we weren’t
Really thinking of and that’s money–
6. Money - Pink Floyd
Money, get away.
Get a good job with good pay and youre okay.
Money, its a gas.
Grab that cash with both hands and make a stash.
New car, caviar, four star daydream,
Think Ill buy me a football team.
7. Sixteen Tons - Merle TravisYou load sixteen tons, and what do you get?
Another day older and deeper in debt.
Saint Peter, don’t you call me, ’cause I can’t go;
I owe my soul to the company store…
8. Money, Money, Money - ABBAI work all night, I work all day, to pay the bills I have to pay
Ain’t it sad
And still there never seems to be a single penny left for me
That’s too bad
In my dreams I have a plan
If I got me a wealthy man
I wouldn’t have to work at all, I’d fool around and have a ball
9. Take the Money and Run - Steve Miller Band
I want the pie in the sky
I want money lots and lots of money
So don't be asking me why
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Let's face it....we all need money....hmm or do we? Well we need clothes (money) to leave the house. We need food (money) to have energy and strength to get by. We like to travel (money) and have a little excitement in our lives. We need shelter (money) to protect us from the elements, keep us safe, etc.
A piece of paper in many different colors, with many pictures and symbols is what gets us all these things that we want and need.
Wars have been fought over it, songs have been written about it, people rob, kill, steal for it. It saves lives, destroys lives.....its evil yet angelic.
As I will in many posts to come....leave you with songs related to this topic. Music is my life and gets me by....you will grow to know that if you don't already.
1. Money for Nothing - Dire StraitsNow look at them yo-yos thats the way you do it
You play the guitar on the mtv
That aint workin thats the way you do it
Money for nothin and chicks for free
2. Can't Buy me Love- The BealtesI’ll give you all I got to give if you say you love me too
I may not have a lot to give but what I got I’ll give to you
I don’t care too much for money, money can’t buy me love
3. Taxman - The Beatles(if you drive a car, car;) – I’ll tax the street;
(if you try to sit, sit;) – I’ll tax your seat;
(if you get too cold, cold;) – I’ll tax the heat;
(if you take a walk, walk;) – I’ll tax your feet.
Now my advice for those who die, (taxman)
Declare the pennies on your eyes. (taxman)
‘Cause I’m the taxman,
Yeah, I’m the taxman.
Declare the pennies on your eyes. (taxman)
‘Cause I’m the taxman,
Yeah, I’m the taxman.
4. 9 to 5 - Dolly PartonTumble out of bed and stumble to the kitchen;
pour myself a cup of ambition,
and yawn, and stretch, and try to come to life.
Jump in the shower, and the blood starts pumping;
out on the street, the traffic starts jumping,
with folks like me on the job from nine to five.
5. Money changes everything - Cyndi LauperShe said I’m sorry baby I’m leaving you tonight
I found someone new he’s waitin’ in the car outside
Ah honey how could you do it
We swore each other everlasting love
She said well yeah I know but when
We did–there was one thing we weren’t
Really thinking of and that’s money–
6. Money - Pink Floyd
Money, get away.
Get a good job with good pay and youre okay.
Money, its a gas.
Grab that cash with both hands and make a stash.
New car, caviar, four star daydream,
Think Ill buy me a football team.
7. Sixteen Tons - Merle TravisYou load sixteen tons, and what do you get?
Another day older and deeper in debt.
Saint Peter, don’t you call me, ’cause I can’t go;
I owe my soul to the company store…
8. Money, Money, Money - ABBAI work all night, I work all day, to pay the bills I have to pay
Ain’t it sad
And still there never seems to be a single penny left for me
That’s too bad
In my dreams I have a plan
If I got me a wealthy man
I wouldn’t have to work at all, I’d fool around and have a ball
9. Take the Money and Run - Steve Miller Band
This here’s a story about Billy Joe and Bobbie Sue
Two young lovers with nothin’ better to do
Than sit around the house, get high, and watch the tube
And here is what happened when they decided to cut loose
Two young lovers with nothin’ better to do
Than sit around the house, get high, and watch the tube
And here is what happened when they decided to cut loose
They headed down to, ooh, old El Paso
That’s where they ran into a great big hassle
Billy Joe shot a man while robbing his castle
Bobbie Sue took the money and run
Go on take the money and run
That’s where they ran into a great big hassle
Billy Joe shot a man while robbing his castle
Bobbie Sue took the money and run
Go on take the money and run
10. I wanna be rich - Calloway
Cash cold that's what I need
These bill collectors they ring my phone
They bother me when I'm not at home
Ain't go no time to be fooling round
Feet touch the floors and I get on down, you see
I want money lots and lots of moneyThese bill collectors they ring my phone
They bother me when I'm not at home
Ain't go no time to be fooling round
Feet touch the floors and I get on down, you see
I want the pie in the sky
I want money lots and lots of money
So don't be asking me why
I get by with a little help from my friends.......
Okay so I am gonna do something I have wanted to do for some time now. Jump on the bandwagon and create a blog. It's not a blog just about me....it's gonna be about anything. I may blog to yell at someone I wouldn't yell at in real life...cuz I am a nice person and nice people don't yell! HA! We just keep it bottled up inside until we explode one day.....I don't want to explode so I will yell here!
I have been having trouble with creativity lately, and I am hoping to channel it somehow by doing this blog. After hours upon days of boring, menial work you kinda lose your creative edge.
I don't have many friends or may not want some people to see this, so it probably won't be read by many....and that is ok. But if you happen upon this blog feel free to cyber stalk it.
I have been having trouble with creativity lately, and I am hoping to channel it somehow by doing this blog. After hours upon days of boring, menial work you kinda lose your creative edge.
I don't have many friends or may not want some people to see this, so it probably won't be read by many....and that is ok. But if you happen upon this blog feel free to cyber stalk it.
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